Emotional Rush...........just wants to come out.....

My emotions were at peak, knowing that this was the last time of my life.........last time when you looked into my eyes, last time when you held my hand, last time when you smiled for me, last time when you hugged me.........coz it was the last time when you loved me. But i never wanted this last time to come before i lived my last breath. Now a new day has began, people say its new hope, but i know its just a start of my loneliness as i am nothing more than a dead soul.......

Just as the days pass, i ask myself... why do i have to go through all this......My frnds say maybe this is good for you, but do they realize to reach that happiness, i m gonna go through alot of pain, rather i am already going through. Loving some one can be so painful, i never knew, as everytime there was a hope, that things will be normal again.... we will be together again, but that day when it ended, i knew nothing will same again.....never..... it was so simple this time, he simply said its over, and i sat there startled, thinking this is wat i was waiting for?? NO!!!! i may have said so many times, i dnt love him any more, but i knew it was not easy to get over all those 6yrs.....those years when i grew from a baby to gal and then matured as a woman, those yrs when i never understood what being in love is to today, where is was an integral part of my life. But today it feels, that sum1 has cut one of my body parts, and kept in front of me to see it bleed and bear the pain. You can forget everything in a day, but i cant. You said i have to strong, yes for a change i will listen to you and will become strong.

Everyday comes as a challenge now, but then i try to fight with it everyday. I ask myself, when i always said, even impossible says i m possible then why am i lossing hope & strength. I am just too confused with a turmoil of mixed feelings. But i will fight with that and come up as a shining star. I will make you say one day, that 'I WAS THE BEST'. I ll do it!!!!!