Its not just about today, tomorrow or yesterday. Its about what I have been feeling from such a long way!!! Everybody has certain traits, so do I have. But with this I have questions..... When I accept everybody the way they are, why can't it be same for me?????
People say I don't know what being lonely is!!!! But is the physical presence everything??? Sometimes you have a crowd around you, who just don't make you feel yourself!!!! I have so many, but don't feel myself with them.....I can't be what i am with them... can't laugh, scream, cry or share being myself.... Then how come I have many people..... I don't have any who I can say is my bestest friend.
You meet new people everyday, from work place to college to social life, so do I. Maybe because of my nature end up giving importance to all, forgetting that the person is just tooo selfish to revert back.
People are cold because of their problems, but why do they forget that everybody have problems. So do I have, but do I forget giving love & care to my loved ones.
Had friends, very special ones... But today they seem so cold and away. It feels more bad when you don't leave any stones unturned for anything that I could have done for them. But today they gave a cold shoulder and come up only when they have some work to be done.. When the work is over who am I??????
I know I have a habit of being possessive, rather too possessive.....This is because I love my friends & care for them. For me they are special, even that means caring for them even after they have left me because of a small fight or I have pushed them away for their betterment or don't even know why they left you....Sometimes it really hurts to have such friends whom you give everything, but in end you get nothing but hurt!!!!
A small thing made me feel how lonely I am the other day!!! It has been days since then, but i can still feel it.....It was seeing two best friends together, having such a special bond of friendship & love, sharing everything from secrets to there things... having same clothes, slippers, bags etc. I realized that day that I miss all that which even I shared once. There used to be days same with my best friend, but today I feel so lonely. The bond was also there in my life, but then why it vanished??? Am I really unlucky in friendship or am I not worth it???
With my feelings so pure at heart I will keep on doing best for my 'so called' friends who don't care, but a day will come when they will realize..... Hope so!!!! and if it doesn't happen then maybe I will believe in the fact that problem lies with me.
But ya there are some people who have really made me feel that I am special for them..... So there come a special thanks to them for making me a part of there life.....
This is dedicated to all those people who have been special......
"TODAY, TOMORROW OR EVER,
I WILL FORGET YOU NEVER,
THE PLACE IN MY HEART FOR YOU IS SPECIAL,
BUT DO LET ME KNOW IF I AM NOT UPTO YOUR LEVEL....
BECAUSE I CARE FOR YOU SO,
AND NEVER WANT YOU TO GO"
hey so true...u know wat its just tat phase of a life whn ur only left wth quality frnds rather than quantity...& belive it or not the same thngs r happening wth me too...nywaz watever happns, happns fr good...
ReplyDeleteso bottom line is Keep Smiling :-)
Cheers!!!
aunty!! see frnds come and frnds go... its not that they hv fgtn u.. its just the priorities change with time... u hv come alone.. u'll go alone.. wo tere saath to jaenge nai... but yes i'll pray ki u get ur frnds back with the same warmth and affection... nai kaeko chinta karti hai.. main to hoon na....... ;) be happy....
ReplyDelete@vinni: its not the quantity of frnds tht i need.... rather i need quality of frnds... sply my best 1s... i understand ur state of mein...
ReplyDelete@nidoo: thanks gal.... i knw u r thr.. tabhi toh kal tune hi sambhala tha mujhe.. thanks...
"TODAY, TOMORROW OR EVER,
ReplyDeleteI WILL FORGET YOU NEVER,
THE PLACE IN MY HEART FOR YOU IS SPECIAL,
BUT DO LET ME KNOW IF I AM NOT UPTO YOUR LEVEL....
BECAUSE I CARE FOR YOU SO,
AND NEVER WANT YOU TO GO"
well i said same for ya
: yaar tujhe kya ho gaya hai yaar ,just read ur new blog,was so touching,but from my side ,my feelings never change like clothes,whatever i feel for u my friend,always remain same,so ,tum jo ho na meri hazaar rs ka phata hua note ho
ReplyDeletemeri 1000 rs ka phata hua note
vishu!!! mujhe kya hu hai wahi mei samjhne ki koshish kar rahi hu.... and thank u for dedicating my poem to me.....lolzz
ReplyDeletein a way u can say that i dedicated ur poem to u
ReplyDeletebut thats d question i ask u ?
I just cant say anything abhi.
ReplyDeleteYou have penned down my feelings as well.
Have tears in my eyes.
Maybe i realize wht a true and special friend is.
I knw, maybe unknowingly i hv hurt u but trust me i nvr wanted to hurt u.
Sorry if i was not upto ur expectations, but i'll do anything so that i can to see you happy.
well its ok... u hv nt hurt... its abt alot of things inside.... i knw who this anonymous person is so its fine......
ReplyDeleteAll I can say is.. yyyy do u expect gurl.. Thats not what UNCONDITIONAL LOVE is all about! Give what u can whole heardtedly. Not for the sake of receiving but for giving only.
ReplyDeletedear vidhi....
ReplyDeleteexpectations r not wat u decide whether to have or not.....they just come wit every relation...some ppl dnt hv d guts to say wat they expect frm a relation, & keeping suffering.... for me it reached a stage whr i deserved sumthing tht i was not getting....
i ll still keep on doing my part... rest is on other ppl....
it is said u fight wit those wit whom u hv expectations, & they come on there own.....
dear vandana, lolz
ReplyDeletei'll again say, thr IS a difference b/w LOVE & UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. and whts up wid d 'GUT' thing??? guts to SAY u r expectng somethng out of a relationship??? who does that??? theres something called understanding silence.. love makes silence speak in itself!! & r u toking abt ur friends who dont hv guts to accept ur friendship? or, as u mentioned are 'suffering' being in the relationship??
aur waise ye last line maar li mere SMS ki? :P
and bas ab maine explain kar diya. aur reply nai karungi. ;) tc
Well well ladies i am a total stranger to all of you but some how i came across this blog...i am sorry if i get a slapstick for my comments on this post... You look quit hurt in relationship...someone said something very beautiful, " Love each other but never make a bond of love" because love in itself is suffice for love....kuch zayada philosophical ho gaya--but to be true i faced such turmoils long back and i notices writing them blogging them is the best way to secure a little comfort for urself... i hope Vandana comes out soon and why she is worries when she has good friends thought what if they are just two... cheer up!
ReplyDeleteif you like read me: www.khalidmusanna.wordpress.com
@vidhi: understanding silence is still easy, but understanding some1's rude behavior is not understandable.... and this was wrote to that behavior....and u knw wat i m tlking abt....
ReplyDelete@KhaLid MuSannA: its true wat u said, but sumtimes u end up getting attached so much tht it hurts........so just trying my best to not think abt those spl frnds, who overnite changed.....
and ya ll definitely check u blog....
well hope to see some of ur writings soon.. let me know...
ReplyDeletewell well what do we have here let me guess another person..wiiiining about not having friends and haveing expectations from them for a change as a person as a friend as no body to somebody do something for others not just for the heck of it do it as if u mean it do it without expections..this is what true friends do with the 1 they care and love about...its not about how much you do its about how much you give....to the 1 you care about sometimes you have to let go off the one you love to to protect them from urself...its not what you gain aor lose..its what is best for them..people change with time and circumstance but as a person and a friend the most testing time is can u put up with them when they change not bes they want to but they have to...it hurts a lot still when people speacial and close to you give up on you but life doesnt stop does it you got tu live with who u r..these are scars that never go as person u have to live with themthat in ur isolation is the safety of the people close to you..and sometimes its about just having some1 around a person tu tok tu u share ur feelings....its not about quantity aor quality its just to knw that there is some1 around...to live alone in isolation turns you into something you dnt wanna turn into....and finnaly dnt do things for peple just for the heck of it in friendship if you have expections from the people you are close to then well i guess u being a girl itself ot even god can live upto ur expections and thats a fact open ur eyes and c what you are doing by ur actions around you are really caring for the people around you??? by telling them how much you have done for them !!!!!life is a visious circle if you have done things for ur friends hey are special to you bec even they have done things for you been thr when u needed some1 the most its gud tu have some1 atleast living in isolation is a worse punshiment that u cn undergo..trust me I KNW if u cant do anything for the people and friends aor they cant do any gud for you if you really care for them let them go THAT SHOULD NOT BE THAT DIFICULT FOR YOU WILL IT???
ReplyDeletethank u Mr. Anonymous, though u are not as i knw who can write all this!!!!
ReplyDeletefor a change i dnt wanna gv explanations to ur comment as I knw wat i have done for my frnds & till wat extent..... this was my feelings tht i was facing in my isolation so wrote them. i feel bad u saying all this after knwing me so well....
ppl who give up thr spl ppl knw wat it feels doing tht.....u just bear d pain of losing spl ppl.... but d1 who lets thm go knw hw much it pains to lose them & to tk d decision of letting thm go.....
i have already let go of all pppl of my life.... only those r thr who want to stuck around wit my irritating nature....and YA ITS VERY VERY EASY FOR ME TO LET GO OF ALL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!
this must really make u feel gr8....
@: Anonymous
ReplyDeleteDude!! I agree with u 200 %.. samajhao aunty ko...
and this is so much true "its not what you gain or lose..its what is best for them" HATS OFF
thanks nidhi... i respect ur views, but mine differ from you guys...... and wnt change also...
ReplyDeletelkz like some1 is impressed by what i wrote...bas jis kee liye likha hai vo iska 10 percent bhi samj jaaye aor for heaven sake i dnt want any justifications aor ur comments..your whole poem come article is very self explanatory ..it just covers that..waise ye bhi sahi hai haar insaan ki ek expection level hoti hai in that way she is right not being scarcastic phele hee bool raha huu barasio mat muj pee....ok you have expection levels from people close to you and there people like me that dnt....mei be thats why i am a loner happy..you win..for a change i am not critizing you.hope that should make you NOT JUMP AT me....
ReplyDeletei dnt understand Anonymous ho kar kyun post kar raha hai jab sab jante hai tujhe nikhil....
ReplyDeleteanyways thanks fr the explanation..... tc...
sab jaante hai mei nikhil hu bt i am anonymous to you....i am no body to you u have absolte no relation with me..nothing zinch zero....i just have a name let me rember how do u usd to put it Mr Nikhil Shankar yep thats rite....but now i am a clomplete nobody to you that makes me guess what its coming to me hold up yaaa hold it...........ANONymous...thas who you col people who you dnt have any relation with people you dnt knw complete strangers isnt ti rite soo its not that i hide my identity its just that I AM ANONYMOUS.... when i comes to you samaj aaya thank you mat bolio plzzzzzzzzzzzz for the explanation again...plzz i beg of you
ReplyDeleteok sir!!!!
ReplyDeleteLife is too short to wake up with regrets.
ReplyDeleteLove the people who treat you right.
Forget about the ones who don't.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy.
They just promised it would be worth it.
Friends are like balloons.
Once you let them go, you can't get them back.
So I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.
Loved the way you have expressed your true feelings.
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