My blog is kind of a window of my emotions tht i have felt for all the special people in my life. It has posts for every single person who has been special to me. But with time, i cant feel things are not the same.......I wish I could go back in time & relive every good moment tht is thr in my posts. Be it my best dayz at office, or wonderful evenings with my angelzzzzz, or be it my special moments with mithoo or my long chats of expressing every bit of me to my best frnd....I miss all this today so much that when the thoughts of such things come to me, I dnt hv a tear to shed, but an emptiness in me....There are many ppl in my life you keep saying you have so many friends to share things with, but today whr i stand i m just too lonely....I hv meaningless frndships, ppl who r just putting up for the heck of it.....everything has changed......One of my frnds told me with time ppl change but the Q i hv today is why??? With time do we stop breathing, or having food, or taking bath etc., then why do we change todays ppl we say we love or are a very important part of our lifes......
Or the prob lies with me??? This is my latest Q to myself tht today i m alone......do i expect too much or as ppl say i am high maintenance nobody wish's to put up with me? I am seriously lost at present......I thought few months back that I will put myself together & stand up for all the bad's tht hv happened in my life & fight to achieve my goal. But in that fight today i hv become so emotionless that anybody come or goes from my life doesn't affect me any more....Slowly i am getting used to of living this life alone.
I dnt know why i am writing this post, but i am writing.....maybe i am getting blank day by day, tht i m cnt even understand wat i am feeling.....
never question yourself.... learn that if nothing else. never point a finger towards yourself just because things arent working out. sometimes, its supposed to be that way. just accept it.
ReplyDeleteyou are not alone ...you want to be alone you of all people know when life is not consistent how can you be or any 1 be...people change with time soo have you...the point is the bond that you share with certain people are still the same its all beleiving in them the day you dont...that is the moment the bond changes ....relationship is a too way traffic you cant give 200 percent nd sit quitley nd wait for the other person to do everything....what you can do others cant...thats what makes you spl to them ...stop thinking you are alone beleive in the freinds that you have ....nd learn to trust them if you have called them your best freind...nd for heaven sake stop Q ur self...there is nothing wrong with you nd even if there is there r people who have accepted you the way you are...you want to throw them out of you life then itsyour choice not theres....
ReplyDelete@gagz: dnt knw.....as u i told u last nite, its getting kinda difficult......trying my best nt to Q myself, but certain ppl's comments are making me do tht...
ReplyDelete@nikhil: maybe i m tired of doing anything for anybdy now.......so staying alone is the best option as thr wont be any expectations from any1. as far as pushing sum1 away is concerned, i m nt doing anything like tht, the situations hv become like tht.
There comes a time in everyones life , where in we have lot of question but no answers , guess you too are on that road now ...things always change for better :)you are feeling blank only to get filled by new colours :) dont worry something beautiful is waiting to get unfurled :)
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